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Wednesday, December 27, 2000 :: 03:02 p.m. A poem I found in a book at work. And yes, Abby, I'll change my layout when I get home. Sheesh, guys don't seem to like shirtless Yoshiki. *snicker*
I think of Polyphemus bellowing his lowly woe seated high on a cliff sun-tight legs dangling into the sea his fumbling hands grappling his burnt eye And I think he will remain like that because it's impossible for him to die -- Ulysses is dead by now he's dead And how wise was he who blinded a thing of immortality? -- Gregory Corso, from 'The Happy Birthday of Death', 1960.
O when I close my eyes the black I see is blacker still and when I sleep the sleep I sleep is not at will and when I dream I dream children waving goodbye Now Playing: an absolutely luscious cello solo. Pity I don't know who the composer or cellist or piece is. Cello-players oWn me. Wednesday, December 27, 2000 :: 11:51 a.m. RAR! ME BOZO SMASH!! Now I'm sitting in the Undergrad library ( that's the library they built underground so that it wouldn't throw shade on the corn, yes ^^ ) being bored. I read some of the guides on somethingawful.com, namely the anime, driving, and lingerie ones. Made me want to blog, dammit, so here I am. There is something seriously wrong with the weather around here. It's too damn cold in the winter, and too damn hot in the summer. The local gods apparently have never heard of moderation, or perhaps it's just the fault of the Canadians. It usually is. Them and their arctic air fronts moving south full of polar air. Don't think I don't know what you're up to. I'll OWN you. Heard about the Christmas shooting, wherever it was? Weird. Well, remember, I predicted SOME kind of fun violence to round out the holiday season. Yay for humanity. As anyone who's ever driven with me knows, I am a ticking time bomb when I get behind the wheel. I am prone to calling the other drivers 'bitchmonkeys' at least once during the drive, especially since it has been proven to me that people in Central Illinois CAN'T DRIVE. For example, while driving to Peoria, I've noticed that all the local drivers stop completely on the bottom of the on-ramps before joining a freeway. WTF? Trying to make it MORE difficult for you to join the traffic? Or are you just being polite, letting all the nice fast cars go by before joining in? Yes, we midwestern drivers are polite, usually. Except when I'm in a hurry, and two bitchmonkey RV's are driving side by side at 50 on the freeway because they're travelling somewhere together and don't want to get lost. Then my rage gets honed, my third eye opens, and you read about the charred remains of two vehicles on I-57 the next day in the papers. For some reason, yesterday the default language for google.com was Korean. I don't know why. An odd thing; if you've ever looked at my right hand, you'll notice that my Head line - the one that goes straight across the palm from between the thumb and forefinger - crosses my entire hand in a straight line. It looks like a freaking monkey's paw. *kusu* Weirdly enough, my mother has this exact same crease on her left hand. I didn't know that the creases of your palm were hereditary, but seems so. o.o I've never seen anyone else with this particular palm line. Palmists would say that it means my mental coffeepot percolates overtime, and that since it's strongly joined with my heart line, my head rules my heart, or something like that. Of course, my mom learned Eastern palm reading, and she says that it means I'm going to make a lot of money. I can deal with that. *_* Have fun in CA, krisit-ho! I'll switch up the layouts. And actually, last night I made an S-sama layout. It'll hafta go up for February, I guess. Juri, I need your address. It seems that I'm driving up with my sister on the 30th, so unless I have a last-minue emergency, I won't be taking the train or need a ride from the station. But Juri, we MUST go to Mitsuwa O_O Was playing BAG2 yesterday; I can get to stage 8 on normal vs. Robo-Z Gold, and it ALWAYS kicks my ass by like 2000 points. Bastard. The trick to getting lotsa fevertimes is to use up all your attacks during the dance. Get all those genki points! n_n I've only played with Kitty-N so far. I love my new watch - it's shiny. *_* It looks most like this one but it's a men's watch so the band is different, and the face is black. Thin silver hands, blank dial ( apart from the STORM logo ) - it's pretty *_* I've been watching a lot of Trigun. I like Legachu. He's genki. *_* Okay, I've blogged long enough. Gotta work in half an hour anyways. Now Playing: Adam Ant - Kings of the Wild Frontier ( in my headphones ) Tuesday, December 26, 2000 :: 10:12 p.m. I think of you...on Sunday afternoons... How odd. I retook the Trigun character selector again and got these results: # 1 Legato Bluesummers # 2 Nicholas D. Wolfwood # 3 Vash the Stampede # 4 Milly Thompson # 5 Dad Nebraska # 6 Midvally the Hornfreak # 7 Millions Knives # 8 Brilliant Dynamites Neon # 9 Meryl Stryfe # 10 Mom Nebraska # 11 Rem Saverem # 12 Kuroneko-Sama Should I start doing the Legachu dance now? So I'll be coming up on the 30th and staying with Juri. If I end up taking the Amtrak instead of getting a ride up, one of the HtKd is picking me up from the station, right? Or should I make other arrangements? And can we make a happy trip up to the Mitsuwa? O_O It's still cold, and I spoiled myself abominably on the Trigun anime yesterday. Bad me. And bad anime! Bad, wicked, naughty anime! ;_; And I read krisit's yaoi Trigun X-Mas-present-fic - sankyuuu H_H I got the Big-O manga, in case I forgot to mention it earlier; it kicks ass! Dorothy looks even more stoned than she does in the anime, if that's at all possible. n_n From what I understand, she still crushes Roger's soul in her understated fashion; she always brings him his coffee. At first it was with milk and a lot of sugar, and he said he preferred it black. So now she just puts in a lot of sugar. He takes a sip, grimaces ( ' too sweet!' ) and says nothing. Heh heh. ^^ There's also an adorable SD-bonus-omake-thing at the back of volume 2. ( there are 3 volumes so far. ) It's essentially a day in the life of R. Dorothy, with no dialogue, drawn SD. So it starts out with Norman telling Dorothy to clean the house in the morning. So she *dustdustdustdusts* everything, and then she approaches Roger's desk, which is covered with hourglasses. She has a mental image of Roger's SD pissy face, and obediently doesn't touch anything on his desk. Then at 1:10 pm, she sits down at the piano and plays the loudest, fastest, most obnoxious music she can manage, and a rumpled, pissy, bed-headed Roger storms out of his bedroom. Dorothy merely points to the clock, ignoring his veinthrobbing at her. Then she mops the floor, and Roger, now dressed and combed, looks down at his watch all '!!!' and dashes off; evidently it's SHOWTIME. ^^ Of course, he leaves footprints all over the floor she just mopped. At 8 pm, she helps Normal set the dinner table for Roger, and by 11 pm she's standing on the balcony, waiting for Roger to come home again. But he doesn't, and the next morning at 7 am she begins cleaning again. Norman's sitting at the controls, communicating with Roger who's in the Big-O, and Dorothy has a mental image of SD-Big-O kicking another robot's ass. She dusts vigorously some more, and then Roger finally comes home, dead tired, around noon. He refuses dinner, and collapses on his bed to sleep. Dorothy looks at the clock; it's 1:10 pm again. She sits down at the piano, and this time she plays a very slow, quiet lullaby, and Roger snores peacefully through it while Dorothy stares expressionlessly at her music. Darnit, that's just so cute----! I can't wait for my VCD's. *_* I just had a thought. They should rate food products, based on the likelihood that said food item will look wrong, or in general cause wrong thoughts. So, like, cheerios, cucumbers, and artichokes would probably be R-rated at the very least, and...uh...goldfish crackers are G-rated? No, I don't know where that came from. Now Playing: Lou Reed - Satellite of Love Monday, December 25, 2000 :: 10:03 a.m. Don't shun me, please! Another belated scary thought: my brother-in-law's mother is the second cousin once-removed to Barbara Bush. You know what this means? I'm related by marriage to Dubya. Monday, December 25, 2000 :: 09:18 a.m. o/~ tie me up and hit me with a stick, yeah beat me! beat me! use a truncheon or a household brick, yeah beat me! o/~ I think it's adequately clear what adam ant likes, eh? o.O I'm really sleepy, but the world is a GOOD DAMN PLACE again! *_* Being a masochist, I got up and checked my online grades, which was available from 12/25 onwards. I was expecting all B's, and probably 2 C's. >_< Instead I found 2 A's ( my classical lit TA couldn't bring herself to give me a B merely because of attendance, it seems! XDD ) an expected B, and one of the expected C's turned out to be a B+. How, I have no fucking clue, but I'm not gonna complain. ( With a B+, I can say to my parents, ' Huh? Darn, I thought I was gonna get an A- !' even though I actually thought I was gonna get a C. @_@ ) I got one C, but I expected it and it won't kill me. My GPA is STILL 3.71 O_O XD so I will LIVE! ( although remind me to take my celexa before trying to explain my C to my parents. It was in Anatomy. whoops ;;^^ But that class was truly really hard! Not like my Entomology B+-cum-C which woulda been an A if I'd been paying attention. ;;^^ The semester from hell is over, and I have emerged reasonably unscathed! Just one more fucking semester! I was worried because med schools might ask to see my fall grades, and although the C is bad, it could be worse. XMas was pretty good. Got a copy of Purgatorio and Don Quixote, which are gonna be good reading, and my copy of Alice is finally installed on Minion. By god, that game is hella creepy. n_n My brother-in-law also installed my new CD-RW into Minion, so I'm supa-genki. ^^ I also got a lot of nice soft sweaters and clothes, and my mom got me midnight blue satin jammies. O_o My sister's mother-in-law sent me flannel jammies with SD penguins on it, and that's what I'm wearing now. More practical, y'know, for -20F weather outside. ^^ Yesterday I was hella bummed, but last night I logged onto IRC ( as all true irc junkies do ;;^^ there was a full house ) and xio and deshi laughed themselves sick while I read the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles yaoi lemon that Xio's posted in her blog. Let me warn you now, that thing squicked me so incredibly much I was reading with my face squinched up in horror XD There's just something about the mental image of Leonardo and Raphael trying to french-kiss - and other things - with those fat flat cartoon turtle faces. And the other horrible thing is that there were plenty of references to actual turtle anatomy, so if you don't want to see a lot of plastron-fondling ( the plastron is the belly-shell of a turtle ) or to know that turtles can keep their naughty bits inside their shell until needed, don't read it. Hell, you probably don't want to read it anyways, right? The other amusing thing about yesterday was that I caught an infomercial for an Australian hair-removal product. It's a gel; you slather it on and essentially use it like waxing products. The unfortunate thing about this product is its name. Hasn't anyone TOLD the company that this resembles American slang for certain parts of the male anatomy? ;;^^ I just HAD to write cruel.com and suggest the site. And you guys can only imagine the hilarity that is the infomercial. ' Just apply Nad's to your face...' I should make egg-nog today; I make it from scratch. This year I guess I should lay off the booze I put in it; my entire family inadvertently chugged it last year and results were amusing indeed XD Ugh...okay, here's the deal. NY-tachi: do you want me to come up on the 30th or the 31st? The party is in Juri's house, right? Who can put me up for the night, and HTKd - you can pick me up from an amtrak station, right? I just need to know this much before I start wrangling with my parents ( who are caving in, I think ) and before I buy tickets. Just mail me real soon, OK? Now Playing: Prima Donnas - Reagan's Dead Sunday, December 24, 2000 :: 09:00 a.m. o/~ sweet little bumblebee, I know what you want from me... o/~ Ah--- just when my parents stop being annoying, my sister shows up to pick up the slack. Those of you who were awake to hear me screaming and ranting and pulling my hair, gomen for dumping! The rest of you can just imagine what an SD, peevish Puu looks like. ^^ I had a nice long blog ready and then IE crashed. Goddammit. Well, I'm thinking of getting my PSX repaired, and this is the store I was looking at. Look okay to you? Uh...let's see. Re: NY's - bah, we WANT to hang out with the HenTaiKyoudai. If I wanted convenience I'd sit at home and watch the Crocodile Hunter marathon on New Year's Eve, and the Iron Chef marathon on New Year's Day. Let's party. Just lemme know the final plans SOMETIME soon, OK? Like a location, address, someone who can pick me up from the amtrak station were I to take the train up, stuff like that. kya-chan, how's the situation with your car going? Gotta wrap stuff today. Yay. I'm wondering whether I should go make pancakes for my family or whether it would end up being more trouble than it's worth. Bleh. I love cooking, but something always happens to take the fun out of cooking for me. -_- chi - sounds like you're having a cheerful Christmas too. -_- I may be exaggerating how awful my christmases are; it's just that when everyone is stressed out, we're the worst to each other and our tempers are frayed, you know? It's just a lot of verbal sniping most of the time since everyone is too tense a lot of the time. But I still don't think it's a total loss - although I wouldn't mind if certain members of my family could just web-conference a Christmas with us instead. -_- ( see my Thanksgiving blog for specifics. ) I'm not religious but I do like Christmas for the family-togetherness thing - well, if too much togetherness wouldn't drive me insane first. ;;^^ I guess it's just because I'm a 'leave me the fuck alone - if I want you, I'll come to you' sort of person. That sounds bad, but it's like, if I'm sitting alone in my room, that probably means 'I have a headache and don't want to be bothered' and that people shouldn't disturb me, but my family has a knack for bothering me when I want to be alone, or vice versa. The thing with my family is that they're very.........I'm hunting for a word. Nosy isn't quite right. I can think of the right word in Tamil, but it doesn't translate well. They're the kind who open your closed door without knocking, and get affronted when you tell them not to do that. And then they leave and leave the door open a crack so that if they want they can come up the hall and peek in your room and see what you're doing without you knowing, since your chair faces away from the door. They tell you to come sit with them and be sociable when you're trying to do something, but if you want to hang out with them, they're always too busy. It's so hard to explain. And in the holiday season, it just feels worse, because I have this sense that things *should* be different. Hell, I don't know. It's hard to convey what makes you feel restless without exaggerating it or understating it. I know I'm hardly the easiest person to get along with, but they seem not to have grasped a lot of the basics after 19-20 years with me. ;;^^ Reading your blog entires made me very sad, chi; I wish I could do something to help but I know I probably can't. You may not know what exactly it is you're trying to drown anyways, do you? It worries me - a lot of the crowd I hang with, both online and IRL, are desperately unhappy in one way or another, myself included. It makes me wonder, what the fuck is going on? Is it just the company I keep? Why are we all like this? Is there some bigger picture I'm missing here? Well, anyways, a merry Christmas to those who actually read this n_n I bet I'll start enjoying myself later today, when we actually do family things. I'm hoping so. I took a nap last night, so my sleep schedule has been jolted back to what it used to be. Now Playing: ABC - The Look of Love ( ah, I miss the 80's. ^^ ) |
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