So...basically you're admitting that you're an idiot? Good.
Insane. Me. Yes.
My boss was finally taken off life support last night. My parents were there, but I couldn't bear to go. She was officially diagnosed with cancer on January 2, and now she's dead. R.I.P. She came to my college graduation party in May, and she was FINE then!! I've known her family all my life; her husband works with my dad. It was a really bad day at work yesterday. The veep of sales, another family friend who's known my boss for 20+ years, broke down in tears in the middle of discussing actual work business with me on my way out the door, and I had to stop, put down my backpack, and let her cry on my shoulder for 15 minutes.
Thankfully when I got home and opened my mailbox, sweet, sweet PERSONA 2: INNOCENT SIN smiled at me from its bubble-wrapped home. I was so fucking relieved to have some kind of mindless diversion after the heavy emotional shit of today, so I engaged in the usual new-game foreplay (opening it up, trying to read as much of the booklet as I could, cackling madly to all who would listen to me...)
You know, there's really something to be said for Japanese seiyuu. Tatsuya is, of course, full of Koyasu-ey goodness when he's not afflicted with Main Character Speech Impediment ( ... ). Eikichi has the cutest JP voice, and he spews random Engrish like there's no tomorrow. XD And! good god!!! Jun WHO DOES NOT SOUND LIKE A 12-YEAR-OLD BOY!! Jun's voice made me stop and giggle madly. His seiyuu did Gene Starwind, so he's got a fairly deep voice, really.
Yes, Whitney , Persona 2.0 had the gay. It was called Special Childhood Friends Jun and Tatsuya. You know that lighter that Jun gave Tatsuya before Tacchan kicked him off the blimp? Well, that was the lighter he'd given Tatsuya in the previous game. When they were children, though, because those were their Precious Possessions. XD Later on I'll post the great translations of drama cd interviews with the character designer and Satomi Tadashi, who were arguing whether Tatsuya and Jun were gay or not. The official consensus was "yes, I guess so." *snerk* And it was OK, they supposed, because neither had much body hair and therefore wouldn't get tangled together. _O_
I'm off to play more. I've got several comments, but I'll gameblog some other time.
Now Playing: Guster - Airport Song (the song Kristina wants to do a Jun-ish AMV for XD Jun-kun has Two Daddies, you know.)
Tuesday, January 15, 2002, 01:33 p.m.
Someone get me a kupo nut! Quick!
How does everyone at work know that I'm going to Japan? I only told my boss as part of asking for the days off, and now everyone knows. o.o ;;^_^
Some idle commentary, since I don't have all that much to talk about:
Liebermann calls for Hussein to be our next target . Dammit, I hate it when people start babbling about things they have no idea about. George Bush Sr. didn't depose Hussein in '91 for several very, very good reasons - yes, our oil interests in the region being among them, but it's not only economic reasons that keep Hussein in power.
We've kept Hussein in power because a) it takes a dictator to keep the three completely disparate cultural regions of Iraq together, and without a dictator, Iraq will very likely fall apart like a broken plate with no glue. Think Russia, yo. We drew these national lines at the end of WWI when the Ottoman Empire fell apart, completely ignoring the natural cultural boundaries and slapping together regions that were convenient for us. If you remove Hussein, you have to be prepared to redraw maps and re-establish an entirely new government, because really, left to their own devices, they'll slaughter each other. Remember the Kurds in northern Iraq? They'll be wiped out without our intervention. Heck, at the end of the Gulf War we *let* Hussein's troops slaughter the Kurds. There are reports of US soldiers being ordered to just stand by and watch the massacre. This was after we had promised to help them if they'd revolt against Hussein.
This, of course, is just my understanding of the situation; please feel free to correct me. If removing Hussein is supposed to um, free the Iraqi people and, more importantly, keep them from breeding terrorist groups, plunging the country into ruin by removing the tyrannical lynchpin is really rather counterproductive.
Speaking of terrorist groups. You know why the Saudis and everyone in that area cooperate with us? Because they need us to bail their asses out in case Hussein tries to invade them. He doesn't really have the resources to do so anymore, but it's the IMAGINED THREAT that counts. Without our little boogeyman in the Middle East, it would be so easy for those countries to close ranks against the Great Satan and cut off our oil supply from that region. Because, you know, many countries dislike the US (out of jealousy, out of...whatever, it's obvious by now, right?) and only cooperate with us because they get something out of it or there's some kind of Sword of Damocles involved.
Bush Sr. really wasn't stupid when he didn't depose Hussein in '91. He knew what he was doing - or at least his actions would seem to indicate that. We drove the Iraqi troops out, nailed their tanks, and then let the Republican Guard escape just so that Iraq had just enough teeth to seem threatening to the neighboring countries.
You gotta THINK about these things, dammit, before making sweeping statements. And think of the power vacuum that would be created if we took our Iraq. Aiya.
Agree? Disagree? Dude, email me. If I've made a mistake (I'm typing this at work and trying pull stuff out of memory) lemme know too.
Adam Ant charged in London scuffle . Ho ho ho. But the line from that article that really got me was " The singer, whose hits included "Stand and Deliver" and "Prince Charming," is scheduled to headline a 1980s nostalgia tour this spring."
*LEEEER* Get your butt out of trouble and over to the US, damn you! 80's nostalgia tour. Ho ho ho. New wave. Ho ho ho. Ho ho ho ho. This had BETTER be a US tour, not just a UK tour, or...or...well, I'll sulk.
And if I hear the phrase 'vasovagal reflex' one more time...
In better news, it may be too late to sublease my apaato. XDDDD Yay!
Oh, I saw "The Royal Tennenbaums" on Sunday. Pretty good movie. But I need the soundtrack more. Mm-mm. If it's anything like the in-movie music - the Clash, Velvet Underground, Nico, Bob Dylan, Jackson Browne...
Crap. Now they want to screen ALL luggage at airports? Good god, aviation's going to slow to a crawl. >_<
Now Playing: Daft Punk - High Life
Sunday, January 13, 2002, 12:37 p.m.
o/~ I watched it for a little while...I love to watch things on TV...o/~
I swear, I'd blog more if pitas didn't give me such crap. X_x
Man, I've been feeling old and cranky nowadays. Nothing like graduate school and your 21st birthday to make you feel decrepit. I've been swinging between a nice cosmic Zen tolerance for other people's weaknesses and a raging bitchy hatred for the idiots who populate the world. It's only the knowledge that someone else - several someone elses - probably want to run ME over with a speeding Mack truck that keeps me from getting any delusions about being less irritating than anyone else in the world. But I've noticed myself becoming more vengeful lately, as anyone who talked to me about two days ago can attest to. @_@
You know...I keep hearing how FFX is so good...and Krisit's spoiled me thoroughly about it and shown me all the cool bits and it DOES seem really cool...and yet I still have absolutely no urge to play it. @_@ I don't know why not. Maybe it's the prospect of Hastagas and Curagas and Moogles and Chocobos and silly side games that makes me ph33r. Although I admit I find this game's plot more interesting than usual.
Oh, for you..FFIX fans? I was at the temple yesterday with my parents, and found out that "Kuja" is the planet/god Mars in Vedic astrology. I dunno if this is common knowledge in the fandom; I was used to Mars being called Mangal or something. If you're curious, check out this page on the Navagraha, the Nine Planets. The Vedic astrological system is rather like the Aristotelian or Ptolemaic model with the 'six planets' = Sun, Moon, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, and Saturn - orbiting the earth. Rahu and Ketu are dark, smoky demons that cause Solar and Lunar eclipses.
Reminds me, my mythology class starts again in a week! Yay, I get to teach again!
You know, I'm just rambling about stupid shit again, so I'll stop right here. *rubs eyes* I'm getting Persona 2: Tsumi and a bunch of DJ in the coming week, so I ought to be happy. I'm so easy to please. @_@
Now Playing: The Sea and Cake - Nature Boy
Friday, January 11, 2002, 05:25 p.m.
o/~ So I walked out....oh baby I don't care no more,
I know this for sure, I'm walking out that door... o/~
Hm, I have a live version of 'Last Nite' in which he says he
'walked out' instead of 'turned 'round.' Kind of changes the point of the
line, doesn't it? Shannon, remind me to give you that mp3 sometime.
Hya
hya! The universe is yellowish-blue! No, seriously, it IS.
Read the article. If you combined all visible light in the universe and
sent it through a prism, you'd get a pale greenish or turquoise color.
Yellowish-blue. I guess all those Lunatic demons were right! XD~ Now,
when we find the 5 million ton tombstone, THEN we should start worrying.
India and Pakistan are saber-rattling again. My mom's heading home
for a month on the 29th; I hope India can keep itself under control
until AFTER she gets there and back. I haven't checked if she's flying
west or east to get there...if she's flying via Singapore she can fly
directly into Madras instead of stopping in New Delhi.
Then
again, Singapore is pretty
busy right now. Dammit, that sucks. I LOVED Singapore both times I
visited it; it was just about the loveliest place I'd ever been. It's
lush and green and clean...I just have so many good memories associated
with it, like sitting in the kitchen during a thunderstorm, eating
parata and anchovies, and suddenly there's a clap of thunder so loud that
it deafens me, and the lights go out. There's just something about the
light during a summer rainstorm...
Bleh, some places provoke
such a strong visual memory out of me. Like, say, Enya songs. Everytime
I hear that damn Enya song, I can only think of when I was about seven,
when my sister was a senior in high school, and during the summer we
would go to a big field a block away, armed with a battery-powered CD
player and a kite. We'd lie on our backs in the grass, fire up the CD
player, and fly kites all day. It was that one Enya CD with 'Caribbean
Blue' on it, actually. So when I hear Enya, I think of the color of the
sky, that rich June-July blue, with the white clouds and the warm grass
and the kitestring yanking at my hands.
I guess a lot of the
music I listen to is for the memories I associate with them. All the
early alternative and punk and new wave stuff I associate with being small,
when my older sister was deeply into that sort of music and gave me the
old-fashioned sl0ring. My relationship with my sister has been distant
sometimes, but I guess I have more good memories of her than I'd
thought. When I was little, she used to dance with me to Modern English's
"I'll Melt With You". During her wedding, that song came up, and I was
thinking, "Oh, it's that song"...and then I saw my sister head towards me,
and she dragged me onto the floor so we could dance together to it one
last time.
Good god, save me from the sappy reminiscences. I
guess I miss her more than I used to - now that we have a GOOD
relationship. She lives six hours away. But we AIM sometimes; the other day we
spent a solid hour calling each other dorks for our respective
weaknesses; hers for X-Files, mine for anime. :D
OK, OK, I'm done
rambling. One of my freelance editors brought me a free copy of the 54th
Physicians' Desk Reference. I feel
so 1337! That's kind of a nice present.
These lyrics make no
sense. Well, they do, but not really.
Hya Hya!
Med
school is eight months away and counting. I must goof off more! Time's
running out!
Dude,
Ka, you should watch more Blackadder if you can. That show has always
been awesome...and I'm serious when I say that many of the snarky/amusing
lines you'll see on TV or even in fanfic are cribbed from Blackadder.
Before he was Mr. Bean...Rowan Atkinson, as Edmund Blackadder, was THE
master of the sarcastic put-down. XD Although I find it amusing that in
the first series, Blackadder was dumb as a brick, and Baldrick was the
SMART one. XD
OK, better finish this chapter. I would kill
for a nap.
Now Playing: the Clash - Car Jamming (I think that's
what it's called. second track on side A of the Combat Rock LP? I
honestly can't remember track #'s on the CD; I had it first as a record, so
that's how I count the tracks X_x How weird is that?)
Big O - Cowboy Bebop - DiGi Charat - Trigun - Petshop of Horrors - Excel Saga - Gokudo-kun - lain - Saiyuki - Basara
iggy pop :: david bowie :: rolling stones :: orbital :: BT :: depeche mode :: ABC :: english beat :: velvet underground :: lou reed :: brian eno :: roxy music :: dido :: modest mouse :: morphine :: placebo :: magnetic fields :: adam ant :: siouxsie :: cure :: t rex :: beastie boys :: neuroactive :: bauhaus :: underworld :: air :: juno reactor :: tricky
Finally, back to black. If you've been reading my blog at all for the past month or so, you know I've sold my soul to Atlus and their awesome RPG, Persona 2. This layout features Suou Tatsuya, the Deja-Vu Boy of Persona 2.5 and the hero (?) of Persona 2. He's - another one of those surly boys who glare at you if you try to pet them. XD He's holding the mask of Apollo, his persona, and the hands coming up are those of the final boss Nyarlathotep, which is kind of a fucked up situation, if you think about it. Don't know who Nyarly-chan is? Quickly read this or this. Nyarlathotep is the messenger of the Outer Gods, the god who takes a thousand forms. It's just kind of fucked up. Here's some random Japanese Lovecraft fanart. Angst, Tatsuya! Angst! Be glad I didn't use the two other forms of Nyarly-chan in the Persona games that I have scans of. One can be summarized as 'tentacles with faces' and the other as 'man with bondage-gimp limbs.' I love the character designer for the Persona games; he has a really unique and slightly unsettling style. (For giggles, 'Nyarlathotep' becomes 'Nyaruratocheppu' in Japanese.)
As for the title of the blog itself, it comes from the Placebo song "Without You I'm Nothing." Actually, the album version of the song is only so-so. But the UNKLE mix featuring David Bowie kicks my ass. It kicks your ass, too.
Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide.
I'll take it by your side.
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide.
I'll take it by your side.
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies.
I'll take it by your side.
Oversaturation curls the skin and tans the hide.
I'll take it by your side.
I'm unclean, a libertine
And every time you vent your spleen,
I seem to lose the power of speech,
You're slipping slowly from my reach.
You grow me like an evergreen,
You never see the lonely me at all
I...
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
I...
Fall.
Without you, I'm Nothing.
Without you, I'm nothing.
Without you, I'm nothing.
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
Without you, I'm nothing at all.