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Thursday, March 8, 2001 :: 12:48 p.m. " We all go a little mad sometimes....haven't you?" Yeah, yeah, I was up late last night surfing page about Psycho. See, after break, I have a film paper due for my abnormal psych class on Psycho. So I thought I'd read up some background - plus it gave me a good excuse for staying up until 4 am irc'ing. ;^_^ I re-discovered how utterly messed up Ed Gein was. Man. ;;^_^ Then I spent quite a bit of time surfing these serial killer biography pages, utterly apalled yet unable to stop clicking the next link. I guess there's some sick basic part of the human brain ( or maybe just mine ) that finds these things horrifying yet fascinating - it's the car-wreck effect. Oh, as a side note: Yes, HtKD, I'll bring my Saitou DJ for your friend to look at. ^_^ I'm not exactly sure of the plans for Saturday yet. Kristi, Rence offered to put the four of us up for the night if we feel like it, so we can hang out with her and watch anime and stuff. Isn't she nice? She has subbed Saiyuki, too. XD She emailed me her addy and phone number so I can get in touch with her about dim sum on Saturday. Wow, the dim sum party's getting huge now - let me count...I count 11 people. XD Sugoi sugoi! Are we going to the parlor before or after we eat? I confess I'm not entirely sure of the sequence of events on Saturday. ;^_^ Well, we'll see, eh? n_n Hm. Oh, I also uploaded my Orphen page to a free account. I'm not gonna update it, and since we have a file NUMBER quota, it'll help. ( That was our problem; not the SIZE of the files, but the number of files. We were at 7600 files only halfway through the uploading process. ) Genkiland will be completely moved by - hm - well, sometime during spring break, I suppose. :D Now I'd better toddle off home. Must...sleep *_* Now Playing: English Beat - I Confess Wednesday, March 7, 2001 :: 11:45 a.m. o/~ walk into a niteclub see you standing in there both your eyes are on me wonder what makes you care wonder what makes you stare o/~ This week has been...interesting. Shitty would be my general description of it, but I went to an excellent concert last night, and onenisama are visiting this weekend, so I'm trying to think positively. I finished my thesis and submitted the proposal, as well as three rough drafts to the various people that I need to take a look at my paper. So that's taken care of. My parents have been getting on my case again. Not unusual, but it's really starting to wear on my ability to stay genki. Not even the pills can help all the time. And my shrink can tell me not to think negatively about myself, but if my parents keep fussing and telling me to prepare for not getting into medical school - BEFORE I have heard back from anywhere - it just gets really hard. I don't always know how to ignore them. I realize that there *is* a chance that I may not get into med school, but I hate my parents going, ' with YOUR kind of grades and YOUR kind of resume...' FTR: I got a 35 of the MCAT and have a 3.7+ GPA. I'm a Chancellor's scholar, a James scholar, belong to at least half a dozen honors societies, I research, I volunteer, I teach. And I have the idea that this isn't good enough' because my parents are always telling me that it's not good enough. :/ Then then go, ' well, your SCIENCE GPA isn't that good. Okay, maybe it's an A-. Big. Fucking. Deal. But I hate getting this kind of lecture early in the morning ( I got woken up this morning by my father for a 'serious talk' about how I better get all A's this semester, no B's or else... ), late at night ( my mother yelled at me for half an hour at 1 am last night when I got home because she'd dug through my backpack looking for my datebook while I was at the concert. She found out that I had a quiz tomorrow, and wouldn't believe that I'd studied for it. " NO YOU HAVEN'T!" Then I got the 'get A's or else' lecture.) I got 3 hours of sleep last night because I was so miserable I couldn't fall asleep until 4 am. Then I got the 7 am lecture from my dad. I think they sort of mean well, but they are driving me nuts. o.o Anyways, that's why I've been having a shitty week. :/ Now, let's talk about the concert last night, which was awesome. ( Even if my genkiness from the concert was ruined by coming home to that yelling from my mother. ) I went to go see the English Beat. *_* I didn't know they were playing at all until 4 pm, when I was driving to class. I heard on the radio that tonight they were playing at the Canopy, and nearly swerved. XD As you've probably heard me mutter on IRC randomly, " I don't like ska, but I love English Beat." And if you think you haven't heard of them, check the discography - bet you have. :D It was a nice small concert, really small venue, and I was able to get within 2 feet of the stage :D And since Dave Wakeling was there, we got both English Beat and General Public songs. XD Here's some of the songs they played; I don't remember them all...
Hands Off...She's Mine Twist & Crawl Can't Get Used To Losing You Best Friend I Confess Save It For Later What's Your Best Thing? ( I THINK. ) Tenderness I'll Take You There I'll Be There For You Tears of A Clown Jackpot I'm gonna go home and try to nap. And I'm hoping for one afternoon of pure peace and quiet. Saturday, March 3, 2001 :: 09:15 p.m. Abstract, Introduction, Materials/Methods, Results, Discussion... Boy, I feel better now. My Celexa kicked in, making me really sleepy, and I grabbed a two-hour nap. And now everything's all cool again. I plan to finish my thesis tonight or tomorrow so that I can turn it in this week. Here are some fun links to ponder:
And oneesama just showed me a snip of a Kero x Suppi fic. My brain is melting. XD Kero whistling catch you catch me as he tosses Suppi over his shoulder and heads for bed is so wrong, it's wonderful XD Now to work on my thesis. :D Now Playing: Modest Mouse - All Nite Diner Saturday, March 3, 2001 :: 01:30 p.m. o/~ Taste the whip...now bleeeed for me o/~ That's from "Venus In Furs", by Velvet Underground. Don't look at me like that! ^^ Today has been...yes, quite. Slept until 11 am, and then when I got up, my mom wanted to know what my grades were from last semester. ;;;>_< My dad, of course, had known my grades since January, but for some reason kept his mouth shut after ripping me a new one. ( For the record: A in Comparative Literature, B+ in Entomology, B in Advanced Organic Chemistry, and a C in Anatomy. Which is better than I thought I was gonna get at the time; I'd predicted 2 B's and 2 C's. And this is my first C. And even after this, my GPA is 3.75/4.00 ) So I finally braced myself and told her, and boy, then the fun started. I got the 'you're not going to get into any med school' ( uh huhhhh... ) and the 'this is because of all the time you waste on anime/computer/social life' ( uh huhhhhh....last semester I spent 1-2 hours a week on anime, on Saturdays. :P If that much.) and so on and so forth, hellfire and brimstone. " Do yOu ReALiZe tHe CONseQuEnCes...blah blah blah..." Then she tried to tell me that I wouldn't be taking my computer with me to whatever med school that would deign to accept me. ( Me: You can TRY to stop me. :P ) So, basically, I went through the same-old, same-old shit. This stuff is standard parental stuff for MY parents. Of course, they never once mentioned the fact that I nearly had a nervous breakdown last semester, had to go see a shrink, and start antidepressants. Nope, that has NOTHING to do with why my grades dropped. Nothing. Oh well. So after we fought and made peace ( mainly me saying: Mom, it's in the past, what good will yelling at me now do? What will happen will happen, and I'll try to do better in the future. :P ) my mom went to lie down for a while. God DAMN it. Not only do they yell at me, they guilttrip me into submission. Fucking HELL. I'm really tired of hearing that if I don't get A's in everything it's because I'm lazy/distracted. Part of that is true, yes. But then how can they say 'Oh, so what if you got an A in comp. lit? You always get A's in comp lit!' and claim that I don't have different abilities at different subjects? I mean, I'm really good at Psych, Classical Lit, Comp. Lit, Physics, and Cell Biology. The rest...well, I just am not as good at. Which means I have to work harder on them, but it's really fucking annoying, y'know? Ah. Got that off my chest. I feel better now. I'm looking forward to next weekend, I really am. ( Assuming that I don't have to make the equivalent of a jailbreak for it. Don't worry, I'll BE THERE. ) I've been making a conscious effort to remember to take my antidepressant when I'm wandering around the house looking for something inanimate to hit or something to scratch myself with. It reaaaaaaally helps. Goddammit, I love my parents, and I know they love me, which is why they drive me nuts. Why... I don't know. I don't think there's an easy solution for anything. I need to finish my senior thesis. :/ Hopefully it'll appease them, or something. I'll be twenty next friday. *waves flags* Yay me. Now Playing: Prima Donnas - Nance Music Manifesto Friday, March 2, 2001 :: 12:43 p.m. I am Vinz. Vinz Clortho, Keymaster of Gozer, Volguus Zildrohar, Lord of the Sebouillia. Are you the Gatekeeper? ....Gozer the Traveler! He will come in one of the pre-chosen forms. During the Rectification of the Vuldronaii, the Traveler came as a large and moving Torb! Then, during the Third Reconciliation of the Last of the Meketrex Supplicants, they chose a new form for him, that of a giant Sloar! Many Shubs and Zuuls knew what it was to be roasted in the depths of a Sloar that day, I can tell you! Here's the results of my HanaKimi test:
# 2 Umeda Hokuto # 3 Himejima Masao # 4 Yuujirou # 5 Ashiya Mizuki # 6 Nakao Senri # 7 Nanba Minami # 8 Sano Izumi # 9 Akiha Hara # 10 Kayashima Taiki Gosh, I got all the really funny characters at the top! And even OSCAR *sparkle* M *sparkle* HIMEJIMA! XD ( well, he always has harpsichords and sparklies around him when he enters. He's a really scary Koyasu character, what do you expect? XD ) genkiland is STILL down. Forgive the fucked-up layout ._. *kusu* Looks like I bullied Katie into dressing up for me! wai wai! What a good little uke. And no, I ain't j00r uke. XD What was I gonna say? Nevermind. I don't remember. HtKD: we'll be maybe going up to Chicago on March 10 and March..um..13th? Wanna party? Now Playing: Nothing. Thursday, March 1, 2001 :: 10:50 a.m. Fujin: RAGE. genkiland's STILL not up, those effing bastards. How are we supposed to FIX anything if we can't access our site? ._.### Oh well, until then, here's the new site. Which will be much better...WHEN I CAN UPLOAD THE OLD SITE THERE. ._.#### I'm tired, and don't really have much to blog about except my rage that icestorm hasn't let us back into genkiland. Oh, right, I remember. I wonder...how many of you have seen the Blackadder series? I was rewatching my tapes last night, and again I wonder why Rowan Atkinson switched from this verbal, sarcastic sort of comedy that he uses in Blackadder to the physical comedy that he uses as Mr. Bean. I mean, really, it boggles the mind. o.o I suppose it's easier for everyone to appreciate Mr. Bean, whereas you have to have a vague idea of the background events of the time and a malicious sense of humor to enjoy Blackadder. ^_^ ( i.e. to recognize Richard III quotes in the First, be amused by the Queen Elizabeth character in the Second, etc etc.. ) Oh well. If you haven't seen it, and appreciate 'British comedy', so to speak, visit me and I'll share the joy XD Now Playing: Orbital - Times Fly ( Slow ) Wednesday, February 28, 2001 :: 11:14 a.m. It's about love...er...or something...nah, it's about hormones. Very tired. Very very tired. >_< But thank god for 75-minute classes. I sat in the back of my Abnormal Psych class, turned in my paper, and settled in for a nice long nap. XD I have perfected the art of sleeping upright; I just kind of droop a little when I'm asleep. Now I feel much better. :D I don't know why my connection's so fucking slow today. I'm on a T1. I was thinking about CLAMP just now, actually. CLAMP, the ultimate fangirl-catering mangaka. :D They are responsible for 90% of all that is evil. XD Now, before I start my rant, this is what I've seen/read: Rayearth, Tokyo Babylon, X, Clamp Campus Detectives, RG Veda, Clover, Card Captor Sakura, Wish, Duklyon, and Angelic Layer. So I guess I'm as guilty as the rest, eh? :D I don't know. I've never been into CLAMP's stories all that much. I mean, yes, they've got some memorable characters, and they can have this great complicated mythology worked out that enmeshes their characters...but plot has really never been, IMHO, one of CLAMP's strong points. They're so popular because they draw such gorgeous art. As xio said, every manga page practically looks like an artbook page. CLAMP is very much style over substance...for example, this whole ridiculous situation with X. They want to have a tankoubon for every one of the major arcana, but they don't really have enough STORY to stretch over, what is it, 22 volumes? But dammit, they want to have that tarot thing going, so they WILL draw gorgeous filler to stretch it out long enough! ...and that's what annoys me. I mean, yes, they've done some interesting storylines, like I suppose the end of MKR 1, which was for me an interesting twist. But really, I'd have been just as happy if they just churned out a gorgeous artbook every once in a while. Like...uh...I dunno, does Yoshitaka Amano draw beautifully? Yes. He just sticks to doing what he does best; illustrating. I kind of wish CLAMP would do that too. :/ I read the latest Asuka spoilers, and I did " Kya---!" at the Seishirou backstory. ;;^^ That's because after dragging out the Sub/Sei story for sooo long, it's nice to see them FINALLY starting to wind that down. :D I like Sub/Sei, but I don't really like Subaru or Seishirou themselves ;;^^ I think the appeal of Sub/Sei is the whole, ' evil guy takes the innocence of naive younger guy...dammit, the evil guy MUST feel something for the naive one!' thing. Seishirou's the one of the pair I prefer, simply because I find Subaru's naivety in TB and super-angstiness in X to be...well...boring. ;;^^ So, I guess I'll just conclude that I just don't really care for CLAMP. CCD/CCS are cute as hell, but...plot? plot wa doko? X is a beautiful empty shell, too, as are a lot of their other works.
keiTOAST> ooh, yeah... i think i'd watch X tv series me> X TV, I'm afraid I'd be forced to watch too XD keiTOAST> i wouldn't be all "wow, this is the best thing i've ever watched" in the least, but i might be like "damn, this is the prettiest thing i've ever watched" keiTOAST> and that would be good enough ^_~ So let me get this straight. I'm picking up Tanzy at around 7:30 pm on the Thursday before ACen, and Dom & Katie at 5:00 am on Friday? OK. XD Will be there! I have Latin now. Ja---n! :D Now Playing: Iggy Pop - Nightclubbing |