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Monday, April 9, 2001 :: 08:57 a.m. I won't have a battle of wits with an unarmed opponent. :P Bah, I'm done with the whole website critique thing. I've said my piece. Of course, now I'm a snobby bitch. :D I have special biznatchy powers now! I can see in the dark, and crush the people's souls with criticism! Ooooh! I *will* start that evil midwestern biznatch clique today. It seems to be necessary. Requirements: 1) Live in the midwest. 2) Be a ' snobby bitch.' 3) Not care. Saturday was fun; went DDR'ing with the UIUC DDR-gumi. Krisit and I also located most of her Iori costume. Right now, I'd like to throw my glove into the ring too: MARA! We will oWn j00! Eternal rivals, ne? XD I have the lousiest sleep schedule. Grabbed four hours last night. Spent most of the night awake listening to the fan whirr. Whoa, Sakura remembers when the CoD was on geocities! XD Fuck yes! We moved that in April 1999, IIRC. Ah yes...that damn page has been up for FOUR AND A HALF YEARS. O_o That's AGES in anime-peeji time, right? I need to update the list of blogs I read. Next time I change my layout. Which will be soon. I found the cutest picture to use. Damn you, Tachibana-sensei! Oh, for the curious, my professor was a super-sweetheart and let me drop the class late. *_* I saw a perfect rainbow around the near-full moon a few nights ago. That's called a moondog, isn't it? It was beautiful; it completely circled the moon. You can sort of see the sundog in this picture; look at the far left and right of the images, and look for the tiny snippits of rainbow. But what I saw was a perfect circle... Now Playing: the hum of the A/C. Ah, spring. Friday, April 6, 2001 :: 08:40 a.m. Did I tell you that I was lying when I said I wanted a new mink coat? I just wanted something sleek to wrap around my tender throat... Whoa, some people need to calm down. Criticism is an inevitable part of feedback, and you should expect feedback if you post something in a public forum. Now, stuff like, ' your page is fugly, I don't like the images you used' is one thing. But feedback like " Your page takes too long to load, and is difficult to navigate" ought to make you sit up and take notice as a web designer. Theoretically a personal webpage or a fansite is supposed to be something you put up on the web for your own fun, but so that other people can view it. If they don't like the design, don't take it as a personal criticism, dammit! Instead think of making a simpler, easier to navigate design that still pleases you. It's an exercise in creativity to come up with a new design that still is quick-loading, easy to nagivate, and pretty to look at. If you can't come up with something that's both pretty and functional...:P ( Me, when I get stuff like, " Priya, this is illegible," or "Priya, this layout is too damn big," my response is, " Damn! Back to the drawing board," NOT, " FSCK YOU, BIZNATCHES! IT'S *MY* PAGE!" But then again, maybe I'm not 1337 enough. :P ) I swear, I'm glad I can't blog all the time. Last night, if I had blogged around 1 in the morning, it would have been so incredibly, appallingly depressing. I wasn't even actually sad, but I'd reached that state where I was like, " You know, if I'm just going to be a failure, there really isn't any point in living." ( You see, I think like that. My shrink tells me not to. ;^_^ ) I guess it started when I remembered my dad telling me that he used to have high hopes for my future until I entered high school. ( Which I did when I was 11. ) But since then, he's ' watched me try to ruin my future.' And that of course means that the past nine years of my life have been viewed by my parents as one continual downward slide, and that means that my high grades, volunteering, honors societies, research work, and continual struggle to stay sane ( blah. Not only am I depressed, I'm a cutter. -_- If you don't know what that is, be glad. ) were meaningless. And eventually I got to thinking, ' Fuck this, if THAT'S failure, then I can't ever succeed.' Gah, just thinking about what I was thinking last night is making me all agitated again. I'll stop. I promised not to be bummed in my blog. And don't worry, or anything. I think like this all the time. I get over it. I talked to tanzy on the phone last night, which was cool. Hey, deshi, hope your sinuses let up on you, as well as the rest of life. Be genki! Wai! Doroshii.com ought to be up today! It's very...blue :DDD Damn you, modem! Move it! Upload mp3! :D I need more sleep. X_x I'm still sleepy. Thankfully, my paper due Monday is 99% done ( the 1% is that my parents never think a paper is done. :P ) so I oughta be free this weekend. Let's party. *huge yawn* No word from my prof over whether I can drop the class. *fret* Now Playing: Orbital - Times Fly ( Slow ) Thursday, April 5, 2001 :: 10:39 a.m. " Roger...anata tte saitei da wa." Yeah, been watching the Big-O dub this week. It's not bad ^^ I'm trying to keep uploading screencaps and stay at least an episode ahead of the dub broadcast. So far it's working. ^^ Oneesama, I can't FIND a 58 webring yet! However, I DID find a 38 fansite ( O_o That's Sanzou/Hakkai. Remember, kiddies, 3 = Sanzou, 5 = Gojyo, 8 = Hakkai, and 9 = Gokuu. ) which has such pretty index art that I can't argue with it. I don't buy it, but it's so pretty. :D I also found a Hakkai-centric links page, and another really nice image gallery. I'll find a 58/85 webring soon, but have pity on me, I'm a san-chan fangirl. XD Speaking of which. O_o a post from the saiyuki ML:
I didn't believe it when I first heard about it. It sounds like a project that might make a fangirl's head explode. tracy t-g (head still intact here) Drama CD (01/3Catalogued) ANIME Tencho Ao-ban "Toreburan ID MMCC-6002 Type CDA Price 2940Yen (USD 23.78) Release 4/25/2001 It's an original audio drama based on the characters created by Manga artist Kazuhiko Shimamoto. The vocal cast includes the main 4 from Weiss Kreuz (Takehito Koyasu, et al) and the main 4 from Saiyuki. Also includes an original song(s) performed by the voice cast. Cast: Tomokazu Seki, Takehito Koyasu, Shinichiro Miki Man, I'm such a seiyuu h0. Oh, and yesterday I found that absolutely evil DiGi Charat pr0n fanart site. It was so............wrong. ( It was linked off a JP big-o links page; I was link-collecting, I clicked. My eyes! >_@ ) Ummm...hm, I'm sleepy. I stay up until 2 or 3 listening to Loveline for my Media Log for my Healthcare seminar, and then I'm woken up at 7 am when my parents take the dog for its early morning walk. ( I walk it in the afternoons and nights. ) But when the dog comes in, he immediately pads to my bed and sits there, hoping to play. If I roll over and cover my head, he'll sit there and whine and whimper just a little, and then try to climb into my bed. I push him down, and then he gets his blanket and plays with it, in case I was unclear on what he wanted to do right now. Then I hafta get up and play with him, and he's ecstatic. But it means I get 4-5 hours of sleep a day. ;^^ Oh well. Reminds me of Petshop of Horrors, actually. ( I'm working on my peeji X_x ) Whenever some hapless individual is running through the back rooms, opening doors and looking in, they'll invariably come to a door full of over-excited little kids. " It's a human!" " A boy/girl!" " Let's play! Let's play!" " Can we play now? Huh? Huh?" The person will back out and slam the door, and the kids, of course, are just the human forms of puppies. ;^^ When a person looks in a cat room, the cat-humans just kind of stare at the person in a bored fashion. XD God...dammit...I am so sleepy! Oh, man, I have a problem. I'm taking this really interesting upper-level chem course. Problem is, I'm gonna get a C in it; the material is fascinating, but the tests are simply kicking my ass. So I wanna drop it - but I still wanna go to class, just out of interest in the material. ( It's held in Noyes, there are lots of auditors. ) But the drop date has passed, so I emailed the professor last night after we got back our tests, begging him to let me drop the class. I hope he gets back to me soon. >_< And I *hope* he'll be a sweetheart and let me. ;_; I have a Latin exam today. I hope I'm ready. I think I am. -_- I don't know if I'm depressed again, or simply lazy, or suffering from senioritis. I just feel so.....sick of this shit. I just don't want to do anything anymore. And it just never ends. Blah. I need to grow up, I guess. Now Playing: rouage - Endless Loop ( It grows on you. o.o; ) Wednesday, April 4, 2001 :: 11:09 a.m. I wish I could design a damn blog right. For some reason, my design sk1LL0rZ fail me when I try to design my new blog layout. I think the problem is that I'm too lazy. ;^_^ I'll waste time ( sorta ) on my webupeeji designs, not on a blog design. Damn. I wish this was as pretty as everyone else's...but at least it's cute. I'm taking care of my sister's dog Lucius this week. He's adorable, and wubs me to death. I've learned not to argue with a 60 lb boxer when it wants to climb into your single bed with you. ;^_^ This weekend I'll be at JAC++ to DDR if I can pull it off. :D If you guys need anything, let me know; I'll be car-biznatch again gladly. I've been wondering what exactly George W thinks he's doing with China. Is he TRYING to provoke an international incident? My understanding is - and I could be wrong - is that George W was trying to be macho again near China and the Chinese didn't like that. This morning, in the car, my mom wondered out loud why a lot of foreign exchange students 'found Jesus' all of a sudden. I told her it was probably for social reasons; it gave you a support group when you're far from home. It's why college kids join frats and sororities; they want a family away from home and ready-made friends. Don't let them tell you otherwise. Then I told her that basically, one day, everyone realizes that life isn't fair, and that life doesn't make sense. Some people realize this earlier than others. When they do, they basically have a range of reactions to this simple fact. On one one, there's going ballistic, such as the reasons the guys were fighting in 'Fight Club'. On the other end, there's finding Jesus, pretending that there's some big cosmic reason for everything, when, in fact, there just isn't. But it's more comforting to pretend there is. What's interesting is that when I was reading my abnormal psych, especially the part about delusions, what struck me is that 'delusions' are very...er...subjective, is the word I hope I'm looking for. A delusion is a strongly held but inaccurate/impossible belief. Okay, so say religious people believe that there's something in heaven who tells them what to do, and they have to obey whoever it is or suffer eternal consequences. Put like that... As you can tell, I'm not religious. But I try not to come across as one of those assholes who get a great kick out of bashing religious people. My mom's religious. I go along with her when she wants to visit the temple or perform a service. The pleasure it gives her to have me participate in these things that she did when she was a child, and that she believes deeply in, is worth keeping my mouth shut. I don't see the point in trashing something she holds dear that is harmless to me or to other people. If some religious beliefs aren't harmless, I'll object, but otherwise, let people believe what they want to believe. Whatever gets you through the night, and all that. n_n Oh, let's see. Um, FTR, I'm kind of the email black hole. :D I DO read all the emails I get, but whether I answer them depends strongly on...uh...well, how lazy I am. Taylor, I got your email. Trust me, I'll answer it. Soon. :D Gomen nasai! *bow* Some random lyrics. I love this song. :D
You pull on your finger, then another finger, then your cigarette The wall-to-wall is calling, it lingers, then you forget Ohhh how how how, you're a rock 'n' roll suicide You're too old to lose it, too young to choose it And the clocks waits so patiently on your song You walk past a cafe but you don't eat when you've lived too long Oh, no, no, no, you're a rock 'n' roll suicide Chev brakes are snarling as you stumble across the road But the day breaks instead so you hurry home Don't let the sun blast your shadow Don't let the milk float ride your mind You're so natural - religiously unkind Oh no love! you're not alone You're watching yourself but you're too unfair You got your head all tangled up but if I could only make you care Oh no love! you're not alone No matter what or who you've been No matter when or where you've seen All the knives seem to lacerate your brain I've had my share, I'll help you with the pain You're not alone Just turn on with me and you're not alone Let's turn on with me and you're not alone (wonderful) Let's turn on and be not alone (wonderful) Gimme your hands cause you're wonderful (wonderful) Gimme your hands cause you're wonderful (wonderful) Oh gimme your hands. Now Playing: Pierrot - Agitator. Where are the lyrics to this? Dammit, Katie, I'll never forgive you for letting me download this. :D |