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    Friday, December 28, 2001, 03:08 p.m.

    Y'all are gonna kill me.

    Looks like I probably won't have a car to go to Chicago after all. >_< My mom just announced that she was going to the temple in Chicago on New Year's Day, and therefore needed the car. She told me to take a train or bus up. When I explained to her that it cost about $40 in gas to drive roundtrip for three people, but as much as $120 for 3 bus/train tickets roundtrip, she just blinked. " You guys can't afford that?"

    *sigh* Unless I can talk her out of it, I might be stuck in C-U. Ka-chan, I don't know what to say; I don't want my crap luck to keep you from seeing the rest of the IL-gumi. I can probably afford to send you up to Chicago, but I'm SOL. And Kristi...err....we'll both separately get a lot of gaming done then, eh? >_<

    On a brighter note, I went and donated blood today because I heard that they needed O+ blood badly.

    I'll armwrestle with my mother for control of the car tonight. The old Puumobile can't make the trip to Chicago. @_@ Its tires are too worn, the transmission is constantly on the verge of strike, and luckily I got the radiator hoses replaced recently, but still it's a cranky old thing. I want to go, but on the other hand, I don't want to keep my mother from going, since she's the religious one around here and wants to pray for everyone to have a good new year.

    Nnnnrgh.

    Now Playing: The Smiths - Stop Me If You've Heard This One Before



    Friday, December 28, 2001, 09:21 a.m.

    o/~ One of these nights I may just / jump down that rainbow way o/~

    Working on redoing all my work on that Word file. It's going well, actually.

    But more importantly, here's a quick note from KRISTI if you were wondering where she is.

      Do me a favor, willya, since koanju is still down from the gearhost server switch.

      Will you post on your blog for me, 2 things, first k.com will be up as soon as possible. 2, the changes of me making it to New Years have now just dropped to slim to none. My car just developed a flat tire, and the 2 of the others are looking so worn it's not drivable. Which means I need to replace all four tires, AND get the alignment redone.

      Money? What money?

      Transportation? What transportation?

      Nope, I ain't going /nowhere/ but work and home until I get that fixed.

      Plus I /really/ need to buy new glasses.

      Don't expect to see my face for a good 3 months. >_<

    I already emailed her and offered her a ride up, so if you still want to go, Krisit, lemme know before, uh, late Sunday, I guess; that'd be the earliest we'd head up.

    I want my immuno textbook back. ;_; My sister still has it. I want to reread it....I really do...

    Don't look at me like that. It's a perfectly normal, natural urge. In some places.

    Apparently I was so incoherent and bizarre last night that Rin had to call me up to ask me AGAIN if I was SURE I wasn't drunk. They didn't believe me when I said that I wasn't. I reassured her that I was just stupid. I'm just stupid and tired, Rin, don't worry.

    And I MEANT to call Ka-chan my little mountain salmon. @_@ And I was the grizzly bear. This was in reference to my inability to keep her from falling over repeatedly when we were drunk last weekend. It just sounds odd out of context.

    It sounds odd IN-CONTEXT too, I guess.

    Mreh, I'm tired. Kya , we'll really miss you for New Year's, believe me. It won't be the same without you to yell, " This sparkling Jello is like a dual-shock controller for my tongue!"

    On the Persona replay front, that biznatch Maia still hates me. I got Ryume to mutate really easily into Matsuo-sama (I'm level 21 in the mazed-up Zodiac) but Maia still holds out, that cheap h0. I ought to have Helios spank her with all claws out. Or maybe just shoot her.

    Shannon, lemme know when you're back in town. (You WERE out of town, right?) Ka-chan will be staying with me for a while, and would like to meet you.

    And Ka~~te! I need your address and directions! :D I'll try to catch you on AIM.

    Phew, this office is overheated. I'm sitting in a T-shirt and fanning myself. And it's snowing outside.

    Now Playing: GorillaZ - Double Bass (" all of which makes me anxious, at times unbearably so.")



    Thursday, December 27, 2001, 03:50 p.m.

    Fun with Referrers

    I had one of those crappy days at work where nothing seems to work right. My computer crashed, corrupting the 90=page word file that I was 75% done with. Now I have to start all over. Fuuuuck.

    While waiting for my computer to stop being a shithead, I started reading a Robin Cook novel. For those of you who don't know, Robin Cook writes medical thrillers. And I swear to god, these are seriously like bodice-rippers set in a hospital. XD I was cackling to myself. " Will the misunderstood, loner pathologist find the evil HMO lackey who is deliberately infecting patients with unusual, highly-contagious aerosol pathogens to cut costs? And will he choose the angsty advertising chick for the rival hospital, or the cute fellow pathologist?" I swear, it's doctors instead of Scottish lairds, and hospital bureaucrats instead of, um, pirates. XD It's great fun to read, I must admit.

    And now to the referrers:
    • gentai sex - again with the damn gentai. What IS that?
    • utena pregnant belly - ....
    • Persona 2 Fanart Katsuya - if you didn't find what you were looking for in my blog, I'm going to die. XD
    • tamil college girls nude photo - .........okay, buddy, you need to get a life. You want to see naked Tamil college girls?! WTF? ('Tamil' is both a language and the ethnic group of the people from South India (and part of Sri Lanka). If you're from the state of Tamil Nadu - like my mother - you're Tamil. I know Tamil. But I'm not in college anymore, and I'm usually clothed. When I can find my pants.
    • kof kyo's songs - dude, kyo's songs are so ghei. Listen to "Yuuhi to Tsuki" for true supah-gheiness.
    • cute black guys - *sigh*
    • male pregnancy dresses - ..............@_____@


    Now Playing: David Bowie - Oh! You Pretty Things



    Thursday, December 27, 2001, 09:51 a.m.

    Sanity Points: 0

    It's really been one of those weeks, I guess. Today I pulled a random CD out of my backpack and blinked at it, bleary-eyed. " Wow, that's a weird-looking woman...wait, that's Gary Numan."

    You'd really have to know what Gary Numan looks like to think that was funny, but trust me, it amused me way too much. (FWIW, I'm listening to the Tubeway Army Premier Hits. You should be listening to it too.)

    To phrase it a bit differently:

      *cue "Cars" video*

      " Uhh...is this David Bowie?"
      " No...he's a puss, but this is a different puss."
      " Change it! *click*"

    Kya-chan is probably the only one who will a) remember/recognize that reference, and b) think it funny. Sadly enough, I think I remember what video they changed to; it was a Frank Black video. I wish I could dump my mental cache sometimes.

    Did I just SAY that? @_@

    God, this entry is rambling and incoherent.

    Now Playing: Gary Numan - Down in the Park (o/~ down to the park where the chant is death, death, death until the sun cries morning...down in the park with friends of mine...we are not lovers, we are not romantics, we are here to serve you~ o/~ You know, I think Marilyn Manson did a remarkably interesting cover of this song. It's worth a listen. The dang song is about aliens taking over the earth and making mindless slaves of us all, isn't it? o/~ I was in a car crash...or was it the war? And I've never been quite the same...little white lies like "I was there"...o/~)



    Tuesday, December 25, 2001, 10:46 a.m.

    To: Priya " I am Spartacus"
    From: Sir Larry and the snail-eaters

    My dad is a damn weirdo. He labelled a present like that, and my sister didn't understand why I was laughing my ass off. I opened that present to find the Stanley Kubrick DVD box set (which, ironically, did NOT contain Spartacus. XD) He also labelled a present to me as being from the Four Horsemen, and I scratched my head.

    It was the Apocalypse Now DVD. XDDDDD~~~~

    Those were my main presents, and I'm still giggly over them. ( Hey, I really wanted these DVDs! XD)

    Krisit, how was your XMas work shift? ;_; Long? Boring? Are your Dreamcast controllers broken or something from last Friday?

    Now Playing: The Strokes - Take It Or Leave It



    Monday, December 24, 2001, 03:56 p.m.

    " For a vegetarian, you're a fucking evil shot, Rent.

    Mmmm, sleepy. I got up at 5 am on Thursay morning to bake chocolate-chip pumpkin bread for the office party. While it baked, I washed my hair, and when I came out (the baking time is one hour - if you're terribly interested, I can post the recipe?) I took it out and let it cool. While it cooled, I played my way really quickly through the Airship Museum for the nth time (I'm such a sucker for Jun-kun XD) and was 10 minutes late to work because finishing my level took higher priority than getting there on time. ^.- I go to work earlier than 90% of my workers anyways, so there still was only a handful of people in the building. It's really nice to have a basket of fresh, piping-hot pumpkin bread to warm your hands upon.

    Kristi showed up at around 6 pm, and we goofed off and she showed me some really damn cool games. I want a PS2 now. T_T An American one, I mean. I have the JP PS2 ;;^^ Ka-chan showed up at around 9 pm, and we all were goofy and stuff, but I had to go to sleep at 1 am because, of course, I had work the next day. So I got up, went to work, and Tay called from the road, saying she'd be in at 1 pm and I should pick her up at the B&N. So I finish up work early, go to my parents, help them buy a tree as I had promised, and raced back to the other end of town to pick up Tay. Wahhh, it's been over a year and a half since I last saw Tay, and boy, I missed you, wench! So I took Tay back to my apaato, and the four of us goofed off until it was time to go see the Fellowship of the Rings.

    Now, I read the Hobbit in grade school, and tried to get into the trilogy, but the prose stumped me halfway into Fellowship. But damn, that movie really kicked ass. To avoid spoiling anything for the five geeks online who may not have seen this movie yet :D I'll just comment that I really liked how the world looked when Frodo slipped on the Ring, and - the fight scenes, and - well, someone commented in a review that Peter Jackson is most inspired by evil rather than good, and that's very true. I really recommend that you see this movie, especially if you were like me and couldn't get past the dense fog of prose that made up the first book of the trilogy.

    After the movie, we went to a steakhouse. MMMM, STEAK. :D~~~~ You don't understand. My mom's *Hindu.* I can count the number of times I've had good BEEF to eat on one hand. So I had a nice rare 'Bangtail' steak (c'mon, in that company, ONE of us HAD to get that steak XD) and we were all genki, but dammit, I'm still the only one of us under 21. T_T But nevermind that, I made up for it later.

    I took the three of them home, and went to my parents' real quick to help them set up the tree, which was Special >_< and took an hour and a half. When I got home, everyone (except for perhaps Kristi) was well on their way to being trashed, and I complained mightily about that. Ka was already at the giggly, falling-over stage of being drunk, but she insisted on coming with Tay and me to the liquor store (putting on two different-colored shoes, BTW) and when we got there, of course, I had to wait in the car while the mostly-sober Tay and the pretty-trashed Ka went inside. When they came out, I heard that Ka had randomly hugged a guy, and was wondering if said guy was gay, because he made their gaydars ping, but Ka figured that asking a stranger if he liked men in a Special Way was a bad thing.

    And then there was the rest of the night, which was spent being.....uh....

    One Keg to Rule Them All.

    That's a good summary. I'm sure someone's going to post that incriminating IRC log >_< but I will reiterate! It was NOT MY IDEA TO GO ON IRC WHILE DRUNK!

    We passed out eventually, and in the morning the three of them departed to Krisit's place, and I went to my parents', because we were going to spend XMas at my sister's place. Man, Krisit, you're such a wonderful friend; I'm always having last-minute plan-changes and forcing you to pick up after me. ;_; But nobody asked me when exactly I was leaving on the weekend before making plans. ;_; I'm really sorry, Kristi, and I DO appreciate everything you do for me...ah, hell, I'll just have to be your bitch in my next life.

    I'm in Ann Arbor right now, and it's been a remarkably pleasant visit so far. o.o;;;;; Turkey's cooking, stuffing's being made, and everyone's half-asleep. I've been spending the time re-reading Tolkien and watching X-Files on DVD with my sister. I found 'Fellowship' to be the longest and most excruciatingly paced book so far (I'm halfway through "the return of the king") because of Tolkien's fixation on fleshing out the world and the backgrounds and the folk-songs and the mythologies and histories of all the different peoples of Middle-earth. He'll waste most of the book on songs and crap, and three sentences on actual plot-happenings. I think the encounter between Frodo and the Five Ringwraiths, where he gets stabbed, is three paragraphs total. But damn, I could tell you the color of Strider's cloak and muddy boots, and that the Hobbits call the Sun 'she'. :PPPP I know, I know, Tolkien was more of a linguist than a novelist, and it really shows. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm INTERESTED in the story, and I WANT to know what happens next, otherwise I'd have to throw my book at the wall and scream each time Tolkien transcribes all 11 verses of 'hey diddle diddle' that Frodo sang in the Prancing Pony. Thankfully, the Two Towers was a lot easier to read (less bloody singing) and was damn interesting, and I'm about a third of the way into The Return Of The King. I swear, Tolkien had some fascinating ideas, but then he totally fucks up the execution. In the first book, at least.

    And now that's my Tolkien-rant for the day. I think. Oh, BTW, Tay, Krisit, Ka? [ Remember 'that SCARY pairing' in Tolkien-slash that someone mentioned as being ever so disturbing but extremely popular? There's a reason for it. Read the second and third book. I was screaming " DEAR GOD NO!!!!!!!! LEGOLAS, NOOO!!" but...I'm afraid that it gets really fricking...no, not blatant, but really, really THERE - if you're looking for it. But...but he's so...grimy! And hairy! ]

    OK, gonna sleeep now. X_x or finish the third book.

    Now Playing: Gary Numan



    Wednesday, December 19, 2001, 10:24 p.m.

    I spanked the monkey at 470 mph.

    That's my personal record.

    And that will be all XD Ka and Krisit and Tay are visiting tomorrow! ( Well, Tay on Friday.) So I will be...uh......yeah.

    Now Playing: David Bowie: Ashes to Ashes



    Saturday, December 15, 2001, 12:50 a.m.

    And a few more things.

    Happy Birthday, Shannon! :D (sorta late, but..)

    OK, Ka-chan's showing up Thursday at 8:45 pm, and Tay, you'll call me at Friday sometime? I'll be at work until 3:30 or so, unless......I decide to call in. Which is a distinct possibility. XD

    Krisit, what are your plans?

    Stephen says I have to clean my apartment before you come because there's a bishounen - I suppose a bikkei, I'm getting kind of old for bishounen @_@ - hidden in here somewhere, and I have to clean to find him. Grrr.

    It was snowing this morning, the big, wet, enormous clumps of snow that fall when it's *right* at freezing. I couldn't work. I just stared out at the falling snow, mesmerized. It was worse than a fucking screensaver. Green pine trees, white snow.

    Ever since I found out yesterday that I've gotten my first med school acceptance, I've been totally unable to concentrate. It's not quite cold feet, but more a case of, " Well, now what?" You know, like when the Narrator and Tyler Durden are discussing What Their Fathers Taught Them.

    Now Playing: Sonic Youth - Dirty Boots ( I loved this song when I was, what, ten. I downloaded it today and remembered why it was so damn catchy. )



    Saturday, December 15, 2001, 12:39 a.m.

    " Who is this?"
    " Rob Zombie. *pause* ...why, dad, you like this?"
    " Yeah, kinda."
    " o.o;; "

    Actual conversation in the car on the way home from Rockford. The song in question was "Feel So Numb." Or whatever the hell it's called. My dad likes Rob Zombie. o.o;

    Oh. I got into medical school, BTW.

    Talk about a pleasant but unnerving dose of reality and responsibility and all those bad words that start with 'r'.

    I'm a bit freaked out now.

    Now Playing: Aphex Twin - Ventolin



    Wednesday, December 12, 2001, 02:24 p.m.

    o/~ Is she over me, like the stars and the sun? o/~

    Ugh. Sitting in my suit in the med school library in Rockford. My last interview (hopefully) is at 3:15. So I've been killing time. I would write a longer blog entry, but I have no way of saving it, and I can't post it until it's done. No, I can't.

    Grr. I just realized that chthonian.net was registered using my students email account, which is GONE. Which means I don't remember my login or password, and can't get it emailed anywhere. *sigh* Well, the account's, there, I just have to call them now. Grrr. I'll do that tonight. Juri, you used register.com for doroshii.com, right? Because I used the cheap-ass one, whatever it was, not interNIC.

    I want to bake. I also want to have that Ewan Bareass Movie Festival sometime soon. This Saturday, perhaps?

    Now Playing: Nothing. But my blog title's from the Pixies' "Is She Weird".



    Monday, December 10, 2001, 03:56 p.m.

    " Priya, you are such a fanart whore."

    It's true! I don't deny it! XD~ I found some great Persona fanart sites last night. XD

    Phew. that's enough for now, eh? Hey, if you need space, I have plenty of space on chthonian.net. I keep putting off putting up the pages I mean to on that site >_@ And it took me four tries to get pitas to save this post right. I hear ya. I'll email you later; lemme know, k?

    Now Playing: Enigma - Camera Obscura



    Saturday, December 8, 2001, 01:13 a.m.

    For May.

    Maaaay. *grovel, bow* PLEASE finish this. Please? Please? What do you want, my firstborn child? Fair trade, right? Child for woogie in an apron?

    Now Playing: Myuji - eX Dream (X TV OP)



    Friday, December 7, 2001, 04:07 p.m.

    New layout, and quick fun with referrers.

  • Yahoo: Lyrics to Oh Mother Of Mine by The Temptations - eh?
  • Yahoo: the king of fighters zillion - yep, got them. HO HO HO! AND THEY'RE GREAT!
  • Google: YATTA video
  • Google: goddess rajarajeshwari - uh, what do you want? the Ashtotram?
  • Google: "evil claus" - that would be Dom. Dom, quit offering to give people presents. :D
  • Google: papa's dojo cd cover - what?
  • Google: Black devil irc - ??
  • Google: read mp3 anime ROD - no luck here.
  • Google: yatta video - I got about eight requests for this. It's 40 MB. Sorry, I ain't posting it anywhere.
  • Google: free download mp3 siouxsie and the banshees israel - ah, Israel! I have that. email me if you want it.
  • Google: sparkle the movie lyrics - ....??
  • Google: yatta japan comedians - Happatai is the name of the comedians, IIRC.
  • Google: priya - ...yes, that's me...
  • Yahoo: tool prison sex music video download - don't have it. I'd like to have it. I remember it well. Remember, just because the giant worm is crawling through the pipes doesn't mean you have to touch it. It looks like intestines.
  • Yahoo: tenjou tenge - *sigh* :D
  • I had a bunch of other really good scary ones, but I forget what they were. Something about hardcore indian pr0n, and repeated requests for KOF gentai. What the hell is gentai? Kristina wondered if it was non-kosher pr0n, and then I thought about how dangerous it would be to check the KOF boys' pants for their religious backgrounds. XD~~

    Now Playing: Emperor Penguin - Federation Funk


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Finally, back to black. If you've been reading my blog at all for the past month or so, you know I've sold my soul to Atlus and their awesome RPG, Persona 2. This layout features Suou Tatsuya, the Deja-Vu Boy of Persona 2.5 and the hero (?) of Persona 2. He's - another one of those surly boys who glare at you if you try to pet them. XD He's holding the mask of Apollo, his persona, and the hands coming up are those of the final boss Nyarlathotep, which is kind of a fucked up situation, if you think about it. Don't know who Nyarly-chan is? Quickly read this or this. Nyarlathotep is the messenger of the Outer Gods, the god who takes a thousand forms. It's just kind of fucked up. Here's some random Japanese Lovecraft fanart. Angst, Tatsuya! Angst! Be glad I didn't use the two other forms of Nyarly-chan in the Persona games that I have scans of. One can be summarized as 'tentacles with faces' and the other as 'man with bondage-gimp limbs.' I love the character designer for the Persona games; he has a really unique and slightly unsettling style. (For giggles, 'Nyarlathotep' becomes 'Nyaruratocheppu' in Japanese.)

As for the title of the blog itself, it comes from the Placebo song "Without You I'm Nothing." Actually, the album version of the song is only so-so. But the UNKLE mix featuring David Bowie kicks my ass. It kicks your ass, too.

Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide.
I'll take it by your side.
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide.
I'll take it by your side.
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies.
I'll take it by your side.
Oversaturation curls the skin and tans the hide.
I'll take it by your side.

tick - tick-tock x3
tick - tick - tick - tick - tick - tock

I'm unclean, a libertine
And every time you vent your spleen,
I seem to lose the power of speech,
You're slipping slowly from my reach.
You grow me like an evergreen,
You never see the lonely me at all

I...
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
I...
Fall.

Without you, I'm Nothing.
Without you, I'm nothing.
Without you, I'm nothing.
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
Without you, I'm nothing at all.